Nishi Selva

Something I have been struggling with recently and have been going back and forth about is doing things for the sake of doing them. Hear me out, as I have gotten older, I get so much more caught up on what I will be getting back from investing in something rather than doing things for the sake of loving doing them. 

Growing up, I was always trying something new. I would jump from thing to thing and at the time it felt like I never stuck to anything and that was what people around me would tell me. Looking back, all those little things I learned on the way have made me who I am today. 

Nothing ever has gone to waste. 

I feel like everything I love now has been narrowed down and if I hadn’t tried all those little things, I wouldn’t have ended up here today. Every side hustle and project that made me no money has landed me my dream job, allowed me to move to the city I always wanted to live in and help find people who are also passionate about the same things I am. 

Why is it now I am here, I feel like I can’t do anything for fun. Almost like, if I am not monetising my passions, it is a waste of time. I have this pressure on me that I need to be making money from whatever I do or what is the point? 

It’s kind of sad really cause if to get where I am today, I need to do all those things for the fun of it, why do I feel like this now?

I have never made any money from my blog even though I have had it for a long time and it truly has been purely because writing is my therapy. It’s not to say one day I wouldn’t try to monetise on here as I do spend a lot of time perfecting my blog and sharing such useful findings, I don’t see anything wrong with making money from it. However, this blog has been the reason I’ve landed multiple jobs over the years. 

When I was waitressing, there was a job opportunity that came up internally for the massive chain restaurant where I worked (we sold chicken and chips as a hint…). The opportunity was to write blog posts and create content for the company which involved being sent to different parts of the country, all paid for. To apply for the role you had to bring a portfolio of your written work with you. 

I had my blog. Everyone interviewed on the same day too so I also met who I was up against. Someone did journalism at Uni…there was someone else who had a published book…and then there was me with my blog I have written since I was 15 on Fashion and Beauty. 

Long story short, I got the job. When I was told I had got the job I was also told it was my passion for writing that got me the job more than experience. 

The job I have now, which truly is my dream job, I also got because of that role and because of my passion for writing my blog in my spare time. 

What I’m trying to say is, you don’t have to make money from something for it to be useful to you. Purely doing something because it makes you happy is okay. And you never know, it could also lead somewhere and even if it doesn’tit’s still worth it purely for the fact it made you happy. 

Love Nishi x